Pengguna:MITGATVM
Hello![1] I am MITGATVM, an Indonesian Wikipedia administrator who is currently interested in linguistics, whose daily life always involves psychological matters. To avoid spoilers, and for those of you who want to read it, please read my journey below.
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| Name | (alias) Yas, Mitgat | |||||||
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| Time zone | UTC+7 | |||||||
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Linguistics related to the "Lima Gang" languages :D | ||||||||
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This user page includes a brief, voluntary overview of my personal journey with mental health and self-understanding, shared for context and transparency rather than for medical or diagnostic purposes.
Personal journey and self-understanding
- Early 2014: Identified as intellectually gifted.
- Mid-2014: Beginning of a prolonged period of psychological stress that I did not recognize as trauma at the time.
- Late 2019 (prior to the COVID-19 pandemic): I encountered terms such as bipolar disorder in discussions around me but did not relate to or pursue them.
- Third quarter of 2022: I began to feel that “something was wrong,” though I lacked accurate language and informally described myself as a “sad boy.” During this period, I was described as “immature” by a teacher.
- 2023: Upon entering high school, I was again labeled “immature,” despite the transition to a new academic stage.
- Mid-2024: I was described as “immature” once more by a teacher who had not taught my class directly.
- November 2024: I started learning about ADHD and found partial resonance with the described traits.
- May 2025: I consulted a psychologist to discuss the possibility of ADHD.
- Mid- to late-2025: While some ADHD-related explanations felt incomplete, I participated in an internship environment that was notably accommodating to my cognitive and emotional profile.
- September 2025: Traits resembling ADHD gradually diminished.
- December 2025: I reframed my long-term experience as consistent with complex trauma, recognizing that its invisibility had delayed this understanding for many years.
Self-described profile
I often conceptualize my personal profile as a triangle formed by:
- Giftedness-related traits (e.g., high cognitive intensity, rapid associative thinking),
- High Sensitivity (HSP) traits (emotional and sensory sensitivity), and
- A strong vulnerability to significant emotional conditions, particularly those associated with long-term, subtle trauma.
I believe that the interaction between these three dimensions can be easily misunderstood in educational and institutional contexts, especially when behaviors are reduced to labels such as “immaturity.”
Caution
This page reflects personal interpretation, not formal diagnosis.
I value careful language, nuance, and respect for invisible psychological experiences.
I am interested in how systems (educational, social, and collaborative) can better account for diverse cognitive and emotional profiles.